i try to make the best informed decisions i can. i used to be impulsive...i suppose a part of me still is. if i could change the way certain things have gone in my life i would, then others (things you might not expect) i wouldn't change at all. truth is no one ever knows where any 1 decision in life will take you. I chose to come to PA for something...relief, a new life, more options, to get away from things....who knows really. Making that decision was crucial for me...even though things didn't exactly turn out the way I originally thought. I've changed a great deal since then...even though it was a mere 4 months ago. Sometimes I get frustrated wondering what would have happened if I stayed...if perhaps I stuck it out a bit longer...I wouldn't exactly be in the same financial state I am in now. Right now I'm working more hours than I did in NY and making less money...so that frustrates me. Yet I know myself well enough to know that if I was still in NY i'd be bitching about that too. ;-) Making the right decision for yourself does not always involve being 100% content...or having things work out the exact way you plan or expect them too... you make them. Hope for the best. Make the best. Sometimes I want to go running home to NY and other times I feel I'm exactly where I need to be.
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